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Friday

It's funny how the older you get the more you learn about yourself. I know I suffer from depression. I took Prozac in the past and it helped but I didn't like the side effects. I want to feel...not be a zombie. :/


I have a lot of fear inside me. I always have. I am scared of making the wrong decisions esp. when it comes to dating. I have wasted so much of my time with the wrong guys and I don't want to waste anymore. T has been very good to me. He has given me no reason to not trust him. But my stalker has. I think what if what my stalker says is true? What if its not? I feel like the relationship I had with J is effecting my relationship with T. Pretty much everything that ever came out of J's mouth was a lie. J was a drug addict and its not fair to compare T to J.


I understand dating more now. How you shouldn't give yourself completely to anyone that isn't your future spouse. Because of the way society is its harder to trust, to love and to have good relationships.


I visited Jill for a little bit last night. We watched most of the movie Quarantine 2. It was pretty good. The first part of the movie freaked me out a little (I am not easily scared). They were on and airplane and I had smoked some grass....so that probably had something to do with it. I've never flown and I'm scared of flying.


Anyways....I need to get to work. Its been a busy morning...

10:41 a.m. - 2012-01-27

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